Using; The Diamond layout
1. The Issue : TRAVELING
2. Internal influence that you are unable to see : RIPENESS
3. External influence of which you are aware : FLOWERING
4. What is needed for a resolution : BEYOND ILLUSION
5. Resolution / The understanding : BREAKTHROUGH
Here I’ll describe how I reflected the osho cards back to myself.
NR 1. THE ISSUE – (Traveling)
”If only this, then that” is a phrase that pop up looking at this card. ”So when that, then what?”… I’m looking at my logic within excuses and justifications. The things that I use in the mind to hold me back. The issue of travelig represents no self movement.
Nr 2. INTERNAL INFLUENCE THAT YOU ARE UNABLE TO SEE – (Ripeness)
<<You are ready to share you inner riches, your juice.>>…
Nr 3. EXTERNAL INFLUENCE OF WHICH YOU ARE AWARE – (Flowering)
Interestingly, the same card, in the same place as yesterday. I see myself not living the words like communication, compassion, understanding, sharing, recieving, love thy neighboor as thy self in it’s fullest potential. Within that I can see how people may doubt me as an individual, as I’ve done, within reacting to how people react to me. And then brought myself in a state of constant bombardment of self judgment, projections, self pity, and isolation.
Nr 4. WHAT IS NEEDED FOR A RESOLUTION – (Beyond illusion)
This I comprehend as breaking through my illusions and delusions. And looking within myself and see how much of the external/without is and has influenced me to become who, what and how I am today. That is influencing me in ways I cannot see. So the words, self awareness and self movement within self honesty thus becomes the challenge to walk within and as.
Nr 5. Resolution / The understanding : BREAKTHROUGH
As the card describes it’s about turning breakdowns into breakthroughs, I see it as facing the danger, the chaos, the risks, the fears, and who I think I am with regards to how I’ve defined myself based on experiences of myself in the past. This require standing up without guaranties of what is to come. And this goes back to what I spoke of in number one, my logic/reasoning with regards to excuses and justifications. That there is a self movement that needs to happen.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to subject my thoughts, words, and deeds into logic based on excuses and justifications, instead of seeing the common sense that change can only happen within breaking cycles of what have become habits and patterns that represent the nature of me in the mind.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that to share, often mean to break down the barriers that has become a comfort zone. And allowing for vulnerability within the act of caring, in the principle of what is best for all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live within a lesser expression of what I’m capable of with regards to living words, instead I can see that where loving thy neighboor as thyself becomes the starting point for self expansion within self movement I’m assisting and supporting myself as others, and others as myself.
I forgive myself that I have not seen, realized and understood that when and as I react to others, within how they react to me, it’s indicating that I have not been self honest, and taken all as one as me into consideration as what is best for all.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I’ve exisited within highs and lows for most of my life, and thus chased my something and someone out there in order to get to somewhere that I think and believe will set my self free from what I experience inside.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny the awareness I have in myself by continuously placing excuses and justifications within projections as ideas as to why I can or cannot do something. Instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that self movement can only occur when and as I move myself in self honestly with regards to what I am able to do in each moment of breath.
When and as I see myself diminishing myself through excuses and justifications that are based on the problems I face individually within the existential. I commit myself to stop, breathe, and realize that this is repetative programming that is swaying the focus away from what I am able to do here and now in each and every moment. Thus I commit myself to stop that logic, and act within what I am able to bring forth for solutions as myself.
When and as I see myself holding on to my comfort zone, I commit myself to stop, breathe, and realize that I am existing within an reciving end posistion wherein I am leaching from that which is here, without giving back in equality and oneness as that which is best for all. Thus I commit myself to give as I would like to recieve as loving thy neighbor as thy self.
When and as I see myself not living words one and equal in thought, word and deed as that which is best for all. I commit myself to stop, breathe, realize and remind myself that I am exisiting within points of self interest, where I have separated myself from the oneness and equality that the physical stand as through the act of thinking and reasoning. Thus I commit myself to change myself by living words one and equal within the principle of that which is best for all.
When and as I see myself reacting to others, within how they react to me, I commit myself myself to see, realize and understand that it’s indicating for me that I am not living my fullest potential self honestly, wherein I take all as one as me into consideration as what is best for all and act according to what I see, realize and understand require to get done to manifest solutions that can bring about a life where all life is regarded as equal.
When and as I see myself continuously placing excuses and justification within projections and ideas as to why I can or cannot do something. I commit myself to stop, breathe, realize and remind myself that I am either my own best friend or my own worst enemy from the perspective of living as the problem or solution within either self interest or what is best for all. Within that I commit myself to stand by the principle of oneness and equality as that which is best for all.
When and as I see myself deny the awareness of myself by continuosly placing excuses and justifications within projoections and ideas as to why I can or cannot do something. I commit myself to stop, breathe, realize and remind myself that self movement as who I am have never been able to be expressed. Thus I commit myself to move myself in self honesty within awareness of where, what and how my starting point is coming from when and as I act in thought, word and deed, to take self responsability for who I am within and without and change myself according to the principle of what is best for all.