I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait for experiences in my life to push me to do things related to change, instead of being self initiated when I see things should change for a better outcome. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make things bigger … Continue reading It’s easier said then done (day 17)
Tomorrow never comes (day 16)
Throughout my life, I've acted out postponement in relation to so many things. Sometimes there is a good enough reason of course, but most of the time, the reasoning is bogus, and feeling based. You know the deal, I don't FEEL like it, along with some excuse of rather doing what I do feel like. … Continue reading Tomorrow never comes (day 16)
There GOEs the pREACHer (day15)
The other day I had a 4 hour long conversation with an old friend of mine, that I used to hang with in my teenage adolescent years. We hadn't spoken for yeeaars, so it was really cool to catch up. Though the coolest part for me was when he pointed out some points in relation … Continue reading There GOEs the pREACHer (day15)
Consequences of self deception (day 14)
A interesting thing that's been going on inside me, more pronounced lately, looping, every now and then, is mind possession, in a very intense physical way, it sneaks up, within accumulation, by me constantly feeding into the mind as self deceptive. It gets very physical, meaning, my heart speeds up, a constant tension ensues, not … Continue reading Consequences of self deception (day 14)
Being a passenger in the driver seat (day 13)
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am not ready to do what I'd like for myself in terms of stopping and changing patterns, addictions, and habits that is old and deeply ingrained which has led me to miserable self defeating abusive experiences. Instead of seeing, … Continue reading Being a passenger in the driver seat (day 13)
Resist the temptation (day 12)
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed laziness as patterns of habits to form and shape my reality within the excuse and justification that I am stuck and helpless, unable to change my living situation unless someone intervene. Instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that for someone to even intervene in form of … Continue reading Resist the temptation (day 12)
It is I, who is my problem, and solution. (Day 11)
I'm starting to come to terms with the fact that, I cannot run, I cannot hide, I cannot deflect the fact that every thing I do in thought, word and deed is my responsibility to make sure is in alignment and adds up with 1+1=2. To promulgate solutions that is best for me as all … Continue reading It is I, who is my problem, and solution. (Day 11)
