Osho Card Reading – Self Support 4

Using; The Diamond layout

1. The Issue : TRAVELING
2. Internal influence that you are unable to see : RIPENESS   
3. External influence of which you are aware : FLOWERING
4. What is needed for a resolution : BEYOND ILLUSION      
5. Resolution / The understanding : BREAKTHROUGH

Here I’ll describe how I reflected the osho cards back to myself.

NR 1. THE ISSUE – (Traveling)
”If only this, then that” is a phrase that pop up looking at this card. ”So when that, then what?”… I’m looking at my logic within excuses and justifications. The things that I use in the mind to hold me back. The issue of travelig represents no self movement.

Nr 2. INTERNAL INFLUENCE THAT YOU ARE UNABLE TO SEE – (Ripeness)
<<You are ready to share you inner riches, your juice.>>…

Nr 3. EXTERNAL INFLUENCE OF WHICH YOU ARE AWARE – (Flowering)
Interestingly, the same card, in the same place as yesterday. I see myself not living the words like communication, compassion, understanding, sharing, recieving, love thy neighboor as thy self in it’s fullest potential. Within that I can see how people may doubt me as an individual, as I’ve done, within reacting to how people react to me. And then brought myself in a state of constant bombardment of self judgment, projections, self pity, and isolation.

Nr 4. WHAT IS NEEDED FOR A RESOLUTION – (Beyond illusion)
This I comprehend as breaking through my illusions and delusions. And looking within myself and see how much of the external/without is and has influenced me to become who, what and how I am today. That is influencing me in ways I cannot see. So the words, self awareness and self movement within self honesty thus becomes the challenge to walk within and as.

Nr 5. Resolution / The understanding : BREAKTHROUGH
As the card describes it’s about turning breakdowns into breakthroughs, I see it as facing the danger, the chaos, the risks, the fears, and who I think I am with regards to how I’ve defined myself based on experiences of myself in the past. This require standing up without guaranties of what is to come. And this goes back to what I spoke of in number one, my logic/reasoning with regards to excuses and justifications. That there is a self movement that needs to happen.

Self forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to subject my thoughts, words, and deeds into logic based on excuses and justifications, instead of seeing the common sense that change can only happen within breaking cycles of what have become habits and patterns that represent the nature of me in the mind.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that to share, often mean to break down the barriers that has become a comfort zone. And allowing for vulnerability within the act of caring, in the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live within a lesser expression of what I’m capable of with regards to living words, instead I can see that where loving thy neighboor as thyself becomes the starting point for self expansion within self movement I’m assisting and supporting myself as others, and others as myself.

I forgive myself that I have not seen, realized and understood that when and as I react to others, within how they react to me, it’s indicating that I have not been self honest, and taken all as one as me into consideration as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I’ve exisited within highs and lows for most of my life, and thus chased my something and someone out there in order to get to somewhere that I think and believe will set my self free from what I experience inside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny the awareness I have in myself by continuously placing excuses and justifications within projections as ideas as to why I can or cannot do something. Instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that self movement can only occur when and as I move myself in self honestly with regards to what I am able to do in each moment of breath.

Self Commitments

When and as I see myself diminishing myself through excuses and justifications that are based on the problems I face individually within the existential. I commit myself to stop, breathe, and realize that this is repetative programming that is swaying the focus away from what I am able to do here and now in each and every moment. Thus I commit myself to stop that logic, and act within what I am able to bring forth for solutions as myself.

When and as I see myself holding on to my comfort zone, I commit myself to stop, breathe, and realize that I am existing within an reciving end posistion wherein I am leaching from that which is here, without giving back in equality and oneness as that which is best for all. Thus I commit myself to give as I would like to recieve as loving thy neighbor as thy self.

When and as I see myself not living words one and equal in thought, word and deed as that which is best for all. I commit myself to stop, breathe, realize and remind myself that I am exisiting within points of self interest, where I have separated myself from the oneness and equality that the physical stand as through the act of thinking and reasoning. Thus I commit myself to change myself by living words one and equal within the principle of that which is best for all.

When and as I see myself reacting to others, within how they react to me, I commit myself myself to see, realize and understand that it’s indicating for me that I am not living my fullest potential self honestly, wherein I take all as one as me into consideration as what is best for all and act according to what I see, realize and understand require to get done to manifest solutions that can bring about a life where all life is regarded as equal.

When and as I see myself continuously placing excuses and justification within projections and ideas as to why I can or cannot do something. I commit myself to stop, breathe, realize and remind myself that I am either my own best friend or my own worst enemy from the perspective of living as the problem or solution within either self interest or what is best for all. Within that I commit myself to stand by the principle of oneness and equality as that which is best for all.

When and as I see myself deny the awareness of myself by continuosly placing excuses and justifications within projoections and ideas as to why I can or cannot do something. I commit myself to stop, breathe, realize and remind myself that self movement as who I am have never been able to be expressed. Thus I commit myself to move myself in self honesty within awareness of where, what and how my starting point is coming from when and as I act in thought, word and deed, to take self responsability for who I am within and without and change myself according to the principle of what is best for all.

 

 

 

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Osho Card Reading – Self Support 3

Using; The Diamond layout

1. The Issue : MORALITY
2. Internal influence that you are unable to see : INTENSITY
3. External influence of which you are aware : FLOWERING
4. What is needed for a resolution : NEW VISION        
5. Resolution / The understanding : CELEBRATION

Here I’ll describe how I reflected the osho cards back to myself.

NR 1 = Morality, now I’m looking at how I’am exsisting in this restricted logic of what’s right and wrong, good and bad within myself. I have to stop. And bring forth the awareness of myself here in every moment. Stop judging myself within what’s okay or not okay. Who am I letting the mind decide…

NR 2 = Intensity, no second guessing, here I come! No more great words, this is me, unfiltered. Going from here. I must find me, my source. Not somewhere out there, oh no, in the presence of me in every breath.

NR 3 = Flowering. The seed is grown now. I have to stop the stuttering of self doubt, I can walk, I can talk, I can breathe. My precense is my present, open it up and I WILL inDEED. I’ve yearned for people in my life that want something more out of life as I do, people who do not abuse substances, including alcohol… People who are clean like me, and looking at how to get the rest of this messy world cleaned up. It’s time to reach out…

NR 4 = New Vision. It’s up to me, I see it. Yes I’m here, I have not reach out. Watch out. Cause there is much work to be done in this world. And as the song goes; You’re a builder baby, here I am a stone. Don’t you pick and refuse me, cause the things people refuse are the things they should use. The stone that the builder refused, will always be the headcorner stone… Take no offence to what I say here, I’m just expressing my visions pertaining to the potential I see within.

NR 5 = Celebration. Let the past be the past. I don’t hold it against you, I don’t mourn nore hold grudges. Let’s create something above and beyond self imposed limitations, individually and together. And let’s do it with passion, let’s have fun, let’s enjoy our self while doing what we do. Let’s make a masterplan and execute!

Self forgiveness

NR 1:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exsist within a restricted logic of right and wrong, good and bad, instead of walking myself within self trust of each breath. To consistantly take responsability for me as all as one and equal within the principles of what is best for all.

When and as I see myself within and as the construct’s of, I can’t say that, I can’t do this, what if this what if that. I commit myself to stop, breathe, and remind myself to live in trust of me here in every breath of every moment. Moving myself one point at a time towards the goal and outcome I commit to.

NR 2:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to filter myself to use big words, without living them one and equal as me here in every moment of breath as an expression of me here.

When and as I see myself disempowered by what I precieve to be big words from which I judge myself less than. I commit myself to stop, breathe, find myself here and decide what I can do to manifest myself as one with these words in self awareness.

NR 3:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as self doubt within and as the mind, not seeing realizing and understanding that I can walk, talk, breathe, and partcipate within common sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel the need to depend on others for what I can think, say and do, instead of seeing where, what and how I can create my self and life to where I become a productive, persistent living example that contribute to the greater good.

When and as I see myself feeling the need for someone or something within my life, I commit myself to stop, breathe, and stick to the practical deal in where I’m able to do what I can with what I have in each moment.

I commit myself to not use others as an excuse as to why I cannot do something.
I commit myself to be the initiator for the change I’d like to see.

NR 4 =

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to leave my life in other peoples hands, without questioning who I am within that equation. Not seeing, realzing and understanding that I’m dealing with hoping and wishing things was different. I am the builder, I am the stone, I either pick myself up or I refuse to do so.

When and as I see myself projecting something out there into the future, based on the past. I commit myself to stop, breathe, and realize that I always have to bring everything back to myself. And deal with whatever is right here preoccupying me in the mind, in each and every single moment of breath and beyond.

When and as I see myself wishing and hoping things was different I commit myself to stop, breathe, and realize that I am the cause and effect for things not being different. I commit myself to remind myself that it is my responsability to be the change I want to see.

NR 5 =

I commit myself to stop any self imposed limitations that I hold against myself by utlizing self forgiveness and practical application.

I commit myself to reach out and support people who want this world to be the best place it can be for all.

I commit myself to walk my talk and talk my walk to the best for my ability within each and every single moment of breath here, as that which is best for all.

 

 

Osho card reading self support

Using; The Diamond layout

1. The Issue : THE MASTER
2. Internal influence that you are unable to see : THE MISER
3. External influence of which you are aware : SORROW 
4. What is needed for a resolution : FIGHTING 
5. Resolution / The understanding : UNDERSTANDING

Here I’ll describe how I reflected the osho cards back to myself.

Nr 1 = As it says in the card description. <<And the Mind, the servent is playing the role of the Master. And the servent is not even your servent; the servent is created by the outside world, it follows the outside world and it’s laws.>>

Nr 2 = Me clinging to the past as a state of possession. And within that not sharing to expand myself as I’ve decided to do here now. It also says to remember that whatever you’re holding onto, you can not take with you…ˆˆˆ

Nr 3 = Yes, this represent the people that have meant a lot to me in my life, that have really made an impact in my life. Some are gone, many are still here, all though that’s not the point. It’s the sorrow and pain I have in relation to the past and have carried as a burden into the presence of me here, without getting down to the nitty gritty resolution points for myself, as in where to go from here. Wherein I transform the sorrow and pain into an alertness of myself and awareness of who and what I am allowing to define me. So I can take self responabilty to change myself in practical ways that reflect a dept of self intimacy I see as a potential within to create.

Nr 4 =  The card depicts a man in full armor, and describes a man battling in his mind for the castle. I see myself inflicting self harm and covering the wounds by supressing it, and in that preventing the injuries from getting healed. It says to start by forgiving self, and as seen up above, this is the point of ”What is needed for resolution”. Which hit’s home for me. To rather open myself up, instead of supressing myself. I’m at this point in my life where I cannot turn the other way. There is so much I see myself able to do once I open up to myself first and foremost, and within that to others as well. There is tremendous guilt and shame I carry, due to my shortcomings to face and change myself. Not having stood up for myself earlier. And I have no one to blame but myself.

Nr 5 = Coming to the understanding… Which is interestingly the understanding card. I want to share what it all says on this card before I share my take on it as how it pertains to myself right here and now. << The bird pictured on this card is looking out from what seems to be a cage. There is no door, and actually the bars are disappearing. The bars were an illusion, and this small bird is being summoned by the grace and freedom and encouragement of the others. It is spreading it’s wings, ready to take flight for the very first time. The dawn of a new understanding – that the cage has always been open, and the sky has always been there for us to explore – can make us feel a little shaky at first. It’s fine, and natural to be shaky, but don’t let it overshaddow the opportunity to experience the light-heartedness and adventure on offer, right there alongside the shakyness. Move with the sweetness and gentleness of this time. Feel the fluttering within. Spread your wings and be free. You are now out of jail, out of the cage; you can open your wings and the whole sky is yours. All the stars and the moon and the sun belong to you. You can disappear into the blueness of the beyond…. Just drop clinging to this cage, move out of the cage and the whole sky is yours. Open your wings and fly across the sun like an eagle. In the inner sky, in the inner world, freedom is the highest value – everything else is secondary, even blissfullness, ecstacy. There are thougsands of flowers, uncountable, but they all become possible in the climate of freedom.>>

These words speak to me on many levels at this moment in my life. I see myself in a mental cage, stuck in the confines of the mind. So much so that I forget that the door is either open or closed depending on me in relation to my mind. I have to realize that I am my own captive just as much as I’m my own prison guard, and I can step out and free myself… Plus, I see my people is already there, waiting for me. Like where the fuck have you been!? ”I had some mechanical problems opening up the lock, and I couldn’t find the key, not realizing I am the key”, lol. I know what this entails for me, I have to bust the door open, tear down the walls, burn down the fortress where I’ve stayed in captivity. And allow myself to fully become the change I want for myself and others. I could not realize before now, to which extent these cards can make a huge difference as a tool to face myself in self reflection. I bought these osho cards back in 2011, thanks to my destonian comrades who showed me, and shared with me that these are a cool tool to utilize in the process of walking points for myself. And I was reminded when I saw that another did the same recently.

Self forgiveness 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so rigid and hard on myself within the mind that I have completely discouraged and disminished myself to a point of not doing what is required of me to stop it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myelf to dwelve deeper and deeper into the problem as myself instead of the solution as myself that is me here every moment of breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the mind become my master in deciding what I can and cannot do within constructs of self judgments, as polarity of right and wrong and good and bad equations, that does not make any sense as to walk my process along with others that do the same, changing self to that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for the past, and allowing the self judgement to override the experience of me to change myself here, by investigating what I have allowed through writing, and self forgive the points to walk practical solutions to not repeat and trap myself into the same deceptions over and over again, as repetative cycles of self abuse that only lead to disempowerment, self limitation and self diminishment.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that whatever I’ve hold on to within my mind in relation to my self limitations. As self judgments connected to excuses and justifications I’ve allowed to direct me, through thoughts, ideas, feelings and emotions I cannot claim eternal because they are not real in fact. I am subjected to this physcial reality wherein the objectiveness that is here is what counts, is what is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the sorrow and pain I have experienced drag me into a state of despair and helplessness. Wherein I allow myself to let the past be a burden, instead of a lesson that I can expand myself within, and grow in a tangible way.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that when I have convicted myself to the sentence of my sentences in thought, words and deed. I am also the only one able to free myself from these convictions, and to in that walk myself free from whatever thoughts, words, ideas, feelings, emotions, as energetic experiences that I held myself captive within.

Self Commitment

When and as I see myself becoming so rigid and hard on myself in the mind that I completely discourage and disminish myself, I commit myself to stop, breathe, and remind myself that I’m not applying self honesty in stopping myself from participating in the mind energy experiences. Thus I commit myself to utilize the osho cards as a means to support myself within writing, self forgiveness and practical application.

When and as I see myself let the mind become my master in deciding what I can and cannot do within constructs of self judgments, within polarity of right and wrong and good and bad equations. I commit myself to stop, breathe, remind myself that it’s about self changing self to live in a way that’s best for all. Which obviously is to stop the mind as it exists within polarity to enslave man not to see, realize and understand that I am equal to everything that is here in fact, in and as the physical. Hence only the mind can believe itself inferior or superior, less or more than what is here.

Thus I commit myself to investigate those points within me to which I’m not clear about, where I still go into contructs of polarity, allowing myself to look, think, react, and act in terms of right/wrong, good/bad, love/hate, positive/negative. Instead of embracing what is here as myself, standing equal to what I’ve allowed as an energetic experience of myself, and changing myself within and from these experiences according to the principle of what is best for all. Through writing myself out, forgiving myself for what I’ve accepted and allowed within self interest as ego, creating self commitments accordingly to walk myself as the practical application I see required for me to live the solution one equal to my words.

When and as I see myself facing consequence in how I participate in ego, I commit myself to utilize the osho cards to self reflect what it is I face within myself for points that need resolution. So that I am able to stop, breathe and commit myself to walk the corrective application in a practical way that solve the pices to the puzzle that I misplaced within thoughts, feelings, emotions, ideas, beliefs, judments, and backchat as self deception in separation of what is here.

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Excuses & Justifications to follow Temptations

You know when you do not feel like doing something?! Forexample right now I don’t feel like writing this, and then if I allow it, my ego will come up with every reason nessessary to prevent me from doing that something… It can be cleaning your house, stopping addictions, work in your garden, create a decent dish to eat, help someone, etc. You start yawning by the thought of doing what you see can be of benefit in a moment. And then you got it, the perfect excuse that justifies not doing that something right now. Well, I really feel tired, and a need to rest right now, my body is sending me that signal, I better listen to it. And tomorrow I will get to do whatever I now saw I should, could and would do, had it not been for this, this and that.

We’ve all been there, and in the cases where excuses and justfications did not work, as for example at work, where we have an ultimatum that we’re loosing our job if we refuse, we simple have to push ourselves beyond the excuses and justifications not to do it. Of course this is a vague example as it’s multidimentional points to also look at, connected to working in our current system as of now. But the point here I’m communicating is that initially, I did not feel like writing this, I had all kinds of excuses ready to justify me now doing what I felt like instead.

Within this sort of mind contruct I’ve wasted so much potential to be a better version of myself, and who’s to blame but me? I’m always the one who has stood in my own way. Because, me now writing this is a proof of just that. I can do it, it’s a matter of willing myself to doing, and be here within the possibilites you see that you could do, and to then follow through regardless of the temptations that the mind is feeding you. There would be no truly great people that came before us, had they not challenged this point in the way that they did. And thus to be a better you, there comes a point where our mind as what we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as, as the mind, have to go in order for us to be more, to exceed beyond every single excuse and justification that we have made part of our experience as a human individually and existentially.

There is always a what if! And that what if, is what I have not seen, realized and understood to which extent has influenced me in my decisions. As it has become so normal for me to use whatever excuse I can come up with and just follow that as that is the answer, which is always about placing oneself in a inferior or superior state, within comparison, and self judgement. Then that become who we are because we are the one who allow that to control our decisions. Guilty as charged.

Luckely for me, I discovered the desteni material back in 2010/11, this has been a part of my main go to source for cross referencing my experiences and internal conflicts, to which I’ve found my self lost. I’m so grateful for what I can reference as a life line support, and that I’ve been able to turn many of my misery into an understanding of myself by reflecting everthing that the material presents back to myself. So I could see myself within the desteni material and thus got a input to work with, on myself, to resolve that which I am experiencing.

Yes it has been difficult, because I’ve had to learn the definitions of words, and place them in to context, to not misinterpret what is being said. Which is acctually a very cool process in it self, as it helps me imensely to place into words whatever I experience, and like to communicate. So that I’m able to get to know myself better and better through understanding words as myself, and change that which is limiting me as to express myself beyond the confines of ego.

Even though it’s been a process just to start this process of writing myself out, self forgive, and correct myself accordingly. I’m grateful for myself and all others that has made this possible for me to even reach this point. Rememeber, I did not feel like writing this. Still I write, and the words just comes flowing. I did not know what I was going to write, other than about this point of excuses and justifications and giving into temptations that the mind comes up with and keeps me trapped unless I see, realize, understand and act against what I’ve come to define as human nature.

It’s sad to see that I did not grasp all of this earlier in my life, but like I said, it’s been a process in and of it self just to be ready to walk myself to the place I am now, where I can see myself clearer. And work on myself to live self honesty as that which is best for all.

Introducing (Post.1)

This blog is dedicated as the journey to life process that Desteni presents. I’m here to face myself and to deconstruct my mind one point at a time to stop who I’ve accepted and allowed myself to live as in self interest. This blog is devoted to understand how the mind operates as to stop the mind as it currently operates to open up and reprogram myself in a way that is worthy and honoroble to all living beings in existence in thought, word and deed, eternally forevermore. I understand that I will have to become the living example to myself and thus others as the change I want to see in this world self directed within the principle of what is best for all. I will open up the points I face to the best of my ability, one at a time to break the spelling that contains the predetermined outcomes of abuse in which I participate within and as the mind. I realize that unless I do this commitingly and vigorously constantly and continously I will be part of the problem and not the solution to end all the forms of abuse taking place in existence. I realize that change has to start with self, and so everything I think, feel and experience has to be directed back to my self to be resolved in thought, word and deed utilizing the tools presented by desteni. If you read this and wonder what the fuck I’m talking about, I suggest you start by doing the necessary research at desteni.org and read other bloggers that walk this journey to life so that you can inform yourself. These writing ought to contain no hidden agendas but to promote self honesty within the consideration of what is best for all life.

This blog is set up to be my SELF honesty support, utilizing the tools that Desteni promotes. (Writing, Self forgiveness, Corrective application within and as the principle of what is best for all.

Desteni.org 
Eqafe.com
Lite.desteniiprocess.com