Power games (day 25)

A lesson that is hard to swallow is that when I hurt myself I hurt another. When I abuse myself I abuse another. Because I in that acceptance and allowance we tolerate everything that is not representing the potential of what can be our best self in thought, word and deed. And when someone seems to have no resolve in terms of support/self support for their struggles and despair, it’s very easy to blame and judge, instead of standing in the shoes of another till the point is resolved.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire power and dominion over others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe I can have power and dominion over others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect that my expectations should be met by others, instead of living the solution myself into being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that what is perceived to be power in this world is the abdication of one’s own power into and as separation in who I am one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire control over people and situation based off of my desire to be a good leader that support what I perceive will be the solution and outcome of a happening in my experience of relationships that is based of energy transfers between people where I have a position of influence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe I know what is best for someone else, when not even knowing the full scope of who they are and how they became who they are in any given moment where I’m confronted with such a person that represent something I deem worthy of punishment for their actions in ways I see fit, and not what is the remedy for the actual solution as one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe it is in my right and in my power to decide what is the proper solution for someone else to have it so that I am the one who is the power force of what is best for everyone else. When that is self deception because any thoughts and belief’s based off of judgement and comparison is simply a tactic to not face everything involved as one and equal in any given situation I find myself worthy of using my power against another. Which is the basis of separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep score of other people, where I play a game of who does what and who don’t, and in that way conjure up the state of separation through blaming, competing, comparing, judging, and conspiring against anyone who does not live up to my expectations.

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