Resist the temptation (day 12)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed laziness as patterns of habits to form and shape my reality within the excuse and justification that I am stuck and helpless, unable to change my living situation unless someone intervene. Instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that for someone to even intervene in form of assistance and support, I must stand as the point of active participation wherein I do my best, to go about changing the things in my life that I want for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish my abilities with every excuse and justification I can come up with, to procrastinate within self interested wants, needs and desires that further fuels experiences of discouragement and laziness as I am simply avoiding facing the underlying causes, and not allowing myself to see that these acceptances and allowances within me only creates more of what I would rather not have my life turning out to be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear commitment to persistence within the believe that my life will only become more dull than it already is, not seeing and realizing that my other preexisting patterns and habits becomes more enforced and all about filling the void, chasing highs temporarily, instead of real practical applications of self care, self intimacy, and solutions solving skills that writing, self forgiveness and self directive application provides when and as I take on the stuff that diminish my potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live within emotional reactions in relation to my failures, wherein I attempt to compensate in polarity as the ego, trying to succeed and achieve a point of what I perceive will get me feeling better about myself. Not realizing that I’m remaining stuck within and idea of myself and others, instead of challenging myself to debunk the root causes that led me to create the experience I have of myself as the mind.

When and as I see myself looking for intervention from others, I commit myself to stop, breathe, and look at what it is I can do, to help my situation, so that I am better able, equipt and sucseptive to receive, and apply the help I get from others.

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